GO TO COMICS WAREHOUSE ON MENAUL AND BUY THE COMIC I HAVE TOILED TO PROMOTE, BECAUSE IT ROCKS EVERYTHING'S FUCKING FACE OFF. PLUNK DOWN 3.50 AND BUY IT. READ IT AT SATELLITE, READ IT IN CLASS...GET THE WORD OUT!
JUST BUY THIS COMIC IF YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING ELSE FOR ME, IT'S A SUPERGOOD POST-APOCALYPTIC STORY, AND IF YOU KEEP READING IT, I APPEAR IN ISSUE FIVE AS A VILLAIN. SO PICK UP ISSUE ONE AND PREPARE FOR THE STORY OF A LIFETIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood: excited Current Music:"She Breaks For Rainbows" by The B-52s
This is an animation me and my Artiste worked on. He animated the character, I wrote the lines and did the voice. I hope you all enjoy...let me know what you think!
Current Mood: excited Current Music:"Indigo Eyes" by Peter Murphy
The show last night kicked ass. I got to hear "She's In Parties" and "Terrible Lie." I got to see cool people at Denny's last night. I did well at AOL. I got to see Drayke a LOT.
Bad:
Drayke couldn't stay over last night. I have another sinus infection. I spoke to my ex last night (we were friendly, so sort of good). My ex informed me a letter came from the Johnson County Courthouse. The letter is most likely a lawsuit over 75 dollars I forgot I owed when I was 18.
The concert made everything OKAY, though. Now I have to move most of an apartment by myself...if anyone could help, call me at 310-995-3916.
Current Mood: annoyed Current Music:"She's In Parties" by Bauhaus
BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well, my dear Drayke finally rubbed off on me enough...though I was already caught between the two worlds that I scored highest in...hehe. I like big boots and lace, is it so wrong?
You scored as Industrial/Rivet-Head. You're a rivet-head. You like industrial music, warehouses, and you are a minion of the machines.
Oh, GODS... I had something very fucked up happen yesterday, and it's not going away. I feel somewhat better, but I am still fuckered up from it.
Banishing rituals, anyone? Before I have another Clive Barker dream about killing my friends under someone else's command? I'm not a fan of those dreams...!
Current Mood: nervous Current Music:"Wreath Of Barbs" by :Wumpscut:
Well... Tonight's beating served the purpose I had intended.
In addition to being the endorphine rush from hell, it also brought about some interesting psychological reactions within me. I'm desperately trying to process things that came to the surface and not trying to kill myself right now because of the content of such things.
I am in a wave of insane emotions right now, and I feel the need for more pain. I want to fucking hurt like I've never hurt before. I want...fuck...I want to die and be reborn over and over in this fiery pain down my back.
I feel like my cover has been ripped off of me... I need...something.
Current Mood: confused Current Music:"Here Comes Your Man" by The Pixies
Words Of Wonder Oh my love This ache inside You make me scream If I do not say These beautiful words Something will die And I will fall There is a burning Deep in my chest Where I cannot reach A deep hole Every time I push My hands inside it They come out Through my heart And the feeling fills Fills my eyes With tears of joy Each time you are Standing before me I must smile When I hear your name Play hopscotch In the chalk outline Of my heart Jump to the beat You put there I touch your face As you sleep Whisper love songs In your ear When you cannot Hear my words And when you awake I am staring At the ceiling Because I am afraid To forget you...
Current Mood: passionate Current Music:"Little Light Of Love" by R.X.R.A
*Shrieks* Oops with my hair...wound up not bleaching it, but getting a tri-color effect. It now spans extreme blonde at the roots to copper, to brown, then to black. I swear if Drayke makes a "Tony The Tiger" joke ONE MORE TIME, I'm putting him over my knee for a spanking. Well, I'd do that anyway, but still...
Looks like Saggio's might hire me, but I need to go back in on Monday. Yippe shit.
I'm now officially Mistress Melody's show slave for Kink in June, and shall be onstage alongside Mr. Arcane and Ms. Kree, so happiness all around. I'll also more likely than not be onstage for Meat Market tonight at the mercy of Mistress Lexianna. I'm going to be wearing a rather surprising outfit for me, so don't be too repulsed.
At any rate, off to do...something? Anything? Lalalalala...?
Current Mood: excited Current Music:"Raspberry Beret" by Prince
Yet Again...! Well, I'm fighting with my parents again.
They keep screaming at me about how they think I'm "spinning my wheels" in ABQ, and accomplishing nothing. They say they would have brought me to Germany if I was back in L.A. working for them. They say it's impossible for me to be an animation writer unless I'm living with them, where they can be over my shoulder, telling me what to do. These are almost exact quotes from Mom and Dad. They basically told me I'll never work in the industry on their watch unless I'm living in L.A.
Why are they doing this to me? I know that they are just wanting me to do well and not waste my talents, but yet again, they are driving me away. I can't believe how worthless my family is making me feel, and I have no support from them again. I only want their encouragement. Yet...they have taken it upon themselves to end my career as long as I live away from them.
I am so fucking upset. Keep sharp objects away from me, I want to cut again.
However, right now, I've cut my own hair and am bleaching it. Fun.
Current Mood: depressed Current Music:"Dyer's Eve" by Metallica
Early Morning Music Musings... So...I forgot I had put this on my playlist. I love this song beyond words, and it's now quickly joined the list of songs that make me teary-eyed. This is for everyone I have ever, or currently love in "that way."
"Precious and fragile things Need special handling My God what have we done to you We always tried to share The tenderest of care Now look what we have put you through
Things get damaged Things get broken I thought we'd manage But words left unspoken Left us so brittle There was so little left to give
Angels with silver wings Shouldn't know suffering I wish I could take the pain for you If God has a master plan That only He understands I hope it's your eyes He's seeing through
Things get damaged Things get broken I thought we'd manage But words left unspoken Left us so brittle There was so little left to give
I pray you learn to trust Have faith in both of us And keep room in your hearts for two
Things get damaged Things get broken I thought we'd manage But words left unspoken Left us so brittle There was so little left to give..."
--"Precious" by Depeche Mode
Love you guys...I need to wash off the brief, unneccessary glint of Sad Bastardness. It's just that...something I'll only discuss with people in person recently happened (thus far, only Drayke, Arcane, Q, and Jhef know), and has sort of hurt me beyond words. I just need to collapse in my Drayke's arms and pretend the world doesn't exist for a while. Maybe then this hurt will go away.
Current Mood: restless Current Music:"Precious" by Depeche Mode
Busy, Crazy Day Ahead... So...missed Haj last night. I still have stamps for you, though...come get them!
Need to go get hair bleach and check out Buffalo Exchange for a bit, and possibly find a place to get my hair cut for NOT a huge amount of money. Does anyone know a good place here in ABQ for that?
I have decided I'm tired of the black hair. I want to go back to when it was almost white blonde. I miss that. I'm going to have to keep the shit on FOREVER to get past the black hair dye, or try to find a strong color stripper at Free Radicals...wonder if they have the Manic Panic White Lightning that I used to use...
So...yeah. Busy day, and Drayke is in between three and four. Happyjoy!!!!!!! Time for snuggles!
Current Mood: busy Current Music:"Deliverance" by :Wumpscut:
For Drayke... "Go to the Empire State and watch the city lights Hear the noise of millions struggle in the sprawl Stare into the sky, we're few and far between Black eyes full of stars, wide with memories
Every street I ever walked Every home I ever had Is lost
Every flower I ever held Every spring I ever had Has died
Every man I ever knew Every woman I ever had Is gone
Everything I ever touched Everything I ever had Has died
Lie down in the park and watch the satellites Hear the children sing just a breath away Dance in the heavy air along the interstate Black lung full of fumes, choke on memories
Every street I ever walked Every home I ever had Is lost
Every flower I ever held Every spring I ever had Has died
Every man I ever knew Every woman I ever had Is gone
Everything I ever touched Everything I ever had Has died..."
--"Like Tears In Rain" by Covenant
Current Mood: happy Current Music:"Like Tears In Rain" by Covenant
Y'Know... I hate waking up in the morning to an anxiety attack.
I just started thinking about my financial woes. That's never a good thing to wake up to in your head.
But I'm better. Also feeling better from the sinus infection. I guess anger works wonders.
I hope she is okay...she is very important to me, and if he so much as LOOKS at her in a not-nice way, I WILL FUCKING RAM HIS GODDAMN TEETH DOWN HIS THROAT AND LAUGH.
Okay...shower time, folks.
Current Mood: cranky Current Music:"Under The Gun" by The Sisters Of Mercy
Lyrics To A Song I'm Writing... It is time again I have armed myself Here I stand before you Here I stand alone Shooting from the hip At your head When the blood fills my eyes I am reborn in your mind
I don't know where I'm going I don't know where I've gone I don't know who I am today They say I've done something wrong I need to fill my black hole mind And find out where I belong
I think I'm falling now Feels like I've fallen before Everyone knows me better Than I know myself The shadows fade before me Someone's watching me again When the blood fills my eyes I am reborn another time
I don't know where I'm going I don't know where I've gone I don't know who I am today They say I've done something wrong I need to fill my black hole mind And find out where I belong
God someone please help me The gray is swirling by Drag off this chainsmoke heartbreak Where did I go today I never knew your name When I returned the magnum force But when the blood fills my eyes I am reborn in your mind
I don't know where I'm going I don't know where I've gone I don't know who I am today They say I've done something wrong I need to fill my black hole mind And find out where I belong
I am a man alone And when the blood fills my eyes I am reborn another time
Current Mood: accomplished Current Music:"Darkangel" by VNV Nation
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